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Jul 17

The voices in our heads

Posted on Tuesday, July 17, 2012 in Strange and Unusual

Have you ever felt that something about you is not quite right? That is… is there something about you that you’ve been afraid to talk about for fear of labeling, fear that people will think you’re strange? I did. That is until my friend recently reached out to me with an exact same concern, and I found out that I’m not such a psychopath after all. Turns out I don’t need Mental Health Treatment…or maybe I do, and maybe my friend does too.

It seemed a good time to consult the blog.

It normally happens whilst the brain is occupied with something else. I might be cooking, or reading, or flipping a mattress when suddenly a voice would chime in and cause me to pause. It’s not an audible voice as such, merely a realisation that somebody has just shouted at me and seems extremely angry. To pick out the exact words of this voice would seem pointless, language seems unnecessary to this shouting entity. The point is that it’s angry and frustrated with me. It could be saying ‘Cop On!’ or ‘Hurry Up!‘ or ‘What the hell do you think you’re doing?!’ but it really doesn’t matter. I hear its tone, I hear that it’s there, and I hear that it’s angry. I don’t know if it’s me, or a guardian angel, or a part of my brain that shouldn’t be there at all.

Disturbing, yes?

Now I realise that I’m not alone in this, and that’s nice. But now I’m curious. Does everybody hear this echo of angriness or is it just me and my buddy? We share similar characteristics in that we’re both slightly insecure with self-esteem issues… we also both have a secret love for the zombie genre and enjoy Salad Fingers cartoons. It has nothing to do with alcohol or drugs, because this voice has been around long before all of that experimentation began. It all seems completely illogical.

It tells me it loves me sometimes. It whispers this. But most of the time it yells.

When it starts to tell me to burn things, or to kill everybody, that’s when I’ll begin self-medication. Drop Dead Fred.

But in the meantime, I’m curious. Very curious.

Do you hear voices too?

 

 

Bring on the comments

  1. Nelly says:

    While I often reproach myself or chivvy myself along I always know it is me speaking to me.

  2. Ginger Mick says:

    Er,no. Could it be a sort of a Lourdes/Fatima thing?

  3. Brianf says:

    I hear very similar voices but I’ve been diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder. The voices I was hearing made me paranoid to the point that it affected my work and life. Like Nelly said 99% of the time it’s you just talking to yourself. I don’t think it’s a problem until it starts interfering with your day to day life. Everyone hears their voices to one extent or another but it’s the rare individual who will admit it.

  4. K8 says:

    Nelly; In that case I must ground myself for speaking to me in that tone of voice.

    Ginger Mick; My calling? Haha! Noooo… sure I’d burst into flames if I set foot in a nunnery.

    Brianf; But what about external entities? Ever seen that flick ‘Ghost’? Huh? Huh?

  5. Brianf says:

    K8, I actually lived in a haunted house for two years. A lady had been killed by her husband in it and she was definately still there when I lived there 5 years after her death. She was benevolent but definately made her presence known from time to time.

  6. Jo says:

    Kate – I think I don’t. I certainly have a negative, critical, depressive ‘voice’ to contend with, but I don’t hear it out loud to the extent that I don’t know what it is.

    The anger thing is interesting. And worth looking at in greater depth. Hypnotherapy?

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